Three Quotes that I live by daily…

There are many idioms that I follow in my day to day life. But a friend recently asked me to list 3 quotes that I abide by. I thought i would share my answer, so here goes. 

‘This too shall pass’ – In the most simple of terms this means that nothing lasts forever. It is very easy to allow ourselves to get weighted down by circumstances happening to us in the moment and lose sight of the fact that while yes, this may not be pleasant but its not going to last forever. I have had too much happen to me in life for me to not fully live by this. Being able to have the foresight and awareness to see the light at the end of the tunnel can only be a blessing in dark times as we remember that like most things, this too shall pass.

‘Do it anyway’ – This quote seems pretty self explanatory, and it essentially is. Anyone who knows me, and I mean truly knows me, knows that I am a risk mitigator. I am very cautious in almost all avenues of life. At one point you could confidently say that I am scared of everything, and you wouldn’t have been wrong. In my early 20s I caught Swine flu (another story) and not long after I had recovered from that, I caught meningitis (another story, for a completely different day) but both made me wake up and ‘smell the bacon’. I realised that life is short, shorter then any of us can imagine and holding myself back from experiencing things in life isn’t going to help me live and enjoy it to the fullest. There is much truth in people only regretting the things that didn’t do. So feel the fear, have your doubts, but do the darn thing anyway.

‘Theres always someone else worse off….’ – There are so many other quotes that mean something to me, or influence me in my day to day life. The next one I have chosen is not so much a quote as a daily mantra for me. I had a really nice telephone catch up with someone whom had gotten to know me quite well but had lost touch with me for the last few years. She commented that I have really gone through it, in terms of both my health and life experiences. We discussed how yes life has been pretty nasty to me and how I have managed to keep on going despite that. Last she knew of was my car accident that left me having 13 back/spine surgeries and a ruptured bladder and internal bleeding repair. I laughed and told her that since we had last spoke I had additional things happen, bringing me to last week and the 2 inch nail being embedded in my left foot.  What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger (and yes I know I am cheating by sneaking this bonus one in) but I am only stronger from all of my life experiences, and no matter what I may be going through I know without a doubt that someone somewhere is going through something far more worse then I can comprehend or imagine. 

Change isn’t just the left over money in your pocket!

Yesterday my mothers laptop auto-updated, and with that came a new layout and a different way of doing things. 

“Why do they have to keep changing it?!”

My mum proclaimed with total frustration. She wanted the screen the way that it was  before. The way that she is used to, irrespective of if there were improvements within the new style and layout.

It had me reflecting on my own personal relationship with change. Its not been the easiest journey to travel. In fact it was one of the hardest lessons in life for me to accept, that regardless of anything  I may or may not do, everything changes. I am a creature of habit and even as I strive to help change the world for the better, I must acknowledge that I take comfort in the familiar. For much of my adult life I chose to remain comfortable and not administer change where it was my choice. But you do not grow and progress by remaining in your comfort zone. I believe that there are lessons to learn in every experience, and that is not to say that they will be positive or well received.

When it comes to change, there a some distinct and specific ways in which people may react.According to Ken Blanchard there are seven common ways in which people react to change. JM Fisher’s Process of Personal Transition, details eight ways in which people react to change: 

• Anxiety – can I cope?
• Happiness – at last something is going to change!
• Fear – what impact will the change have on me?
• Threat – the problem is bigger than I thought.
• Guilt – are the past failings down to me?
• Disillusionment – this is not for me so I’m leaving.
• Acceptance – maybe things won’t be so bad.
• Excitement – I’m looking forward to the challenge.

The Change Curve (based on the model by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross) CREDIT: The IC Space 

 It is often suggested that panic is the most common reaction, driven by the fear of the unknown. And for me that was often a gut reaction. My comfort meant that anything outside of that was not welcome. We have all had to go through much change in 2020,  majority of which has been completely out of our control. The buzz phrase “new normal” is continuously volleyed about in reference to the current climate and the changes we are having to make as a result of the Covid-19 pandemic. Much of these changes has been met with a lot of resistance, with people not wanting to social distance, quarantine or wear masks. I have heard people proclaim that ‘if it’s not broke don’t fix it’, something I feel cannot be used in relation to a pandemic that shows no signs of stopping anytime soon. 

I have learnt to look at change as a positive thing, you cannot win a race without moving forwards. If a caterpillar didn’t change, then it wouldn’t become a butterfly. And so, as I reflect on the unexpected changes that I have had to embrace this year I will leave you with some of my favourite change quotes.

*I WOULD ALSO URGE YOU TO HELP MAKE MAKE A POSITIVE CHANGE BY SIGNING THE PETITION BELOW:

Make black history a compulsory part of the national curriculum for all ages

“Change is inevitable. Growth is optional.”- John Maxwell

“The people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones who do.” – Steve Jobs 

“If you can’t change it, change your attitude.” – Maya Angelou 

“Just when I think I have learned the way to live, life changes.” – Hugh Prather 

“They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.” – Andy Warhol 

“Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world.” – Nelson Mandela

“The measure of intelligence is the ability to change” -Albert Einstein

“If you can’t fly, then run. If you can’t run, then walk. If you can’t walk, then crawl. But whatever you do, you have to keep moving forward” -Martin Luther King Jr.

Credit: Good Housekeeping

Credit: Good Housekeeping

Credit: Good Housekeeping

Credit: Good Housekeeping

I AM TIRED…

I AM TIRED….

I am tired of being tired. I am tired in a way that pervades all that I am. At a time when hundreds of thousands have died from Covid, a pandemic that is killing black people at a disproportionate rate, we are forced to watch as the pandemic of racism takes BLACK lives all around the world.

I was recently told by a white English man that England is not America and we should be ‘grateful for how far the country has come since the 50s’. I was not born in the 1950s, but as a child at school in the early 90s (40 years after the proclaimed long way that the country has come) I was called a baboon and a monkey by my peers. Was asked if I really lived in the jungle and faced physical violence simply because of the colour of my skin. Time has passed but we have not come a long way. Just this month, we saw a plane fly a ‘white lives matter’ banner over a football stadium mid-match.

SOURCE: Google

So I will not listen to someone who has not experienced racism, tell me how great and fair England is and so much better than America. Racism cannot be quantified or excused by comparing countries. Racism is not a multiple choice question. I do not want to hear your excuses for why you think your racism is ok or justified, I am too tired of that.

SOURCE: Google

SOURCE: Racism Scale

I am tired of having to bare witness to the countless lives lost as a direct result of racism. On the 10th June 2020 the guardian asked Want to make the UK less racist? And provided their suggestions of twenty positive ways to bring about lasting change. 

I am tired of seeing so many black people killed because their lives are not given the value and protection that they deserve. 

SOURCE: Twitter

Each one hurts just as much as the last. It’s endless. The wound deep and forever open. Our blood spilled and running is never enough for them, but for me one drop spilled is too much! The necessity of having to film each brutality just to prove this barbarity is happening because our words are not sufficient, leaves these tragic images etched on my mind.

I AM TIRED.…

For every day adds to the pain. Earlier this week I was asked how I manage to get up each day and keep fighting. This person wanted to know how I do it. I am just as tired as the next person. It is exhausting to have to fight a daily battle whether you choose to or not. It gets to me, and I don’t know how to stop that, or if I would, should I could. I am just as affected by all the news headlines and the negativity that has permeated much of 2020. If the news isn’t reporting another disproportionate death of another black or ethnic minority person due to Covid, then the headlines are encumbered with the heavy load of deaths related to police violence and brutality. The UK is not spared from these prejudices or headlines. I awoke to news that two Met officers were arrested over selfies they took and circulated with the corpses of two black female murder victims. I am not sure why these officers are being afforded the protection of anonymity when any other adult suspected criminal in the UK is not afforded the same.

SOURCE: Guardian Newspaper

I AM WEARY….

This all gets to me. I won’t ever pretend that it doesn’t. I am as human as anyone else.

I am weary from a life time of having to deal with this. To me, we have not come a long way. This is a marathon, not a sprint. Ignoring it will not make it go away. It is not beneficial to “sit back and watch, to see if the government makes changes”. We “watched” as institutional racism in the Metropolitan police force resulted in it taking 19 years for a conviction in the case of the murder of Stephen Lawrence. We have “watched” as the Windrush scandal occurred and still carries on. We “watched” as the Grenfell fire burned for 60 hours, claiming countless lives, and watch still as the government makes paltry excuses and gives empty promises. We have “watched” as the government transparently reports some of the equality or more accurately inequality statistics. We see that watching in history has done nothing for us. No one suggested watching World War 2 to see what happens, instead allies were sought to help end it. You are racist to suggest that Black people should “sit back and watch” as we are killed and disproportionately targeted in all areas of life. Maligned, racially abused, and KILLED because of the colour of our skin.

I am tired. I am weary. BUT I AM NOT GIVING UP. I ask that you do not either, let’s make a difference together. I do not have the solution for such a multifaceted problem. I believe that education is a necessary tool in helping to eradicate racism, and because of that I launched a petition. I hope that you will support me in clicking the link below and not only signing the petition but sharing it too!

Make black history a compulsory part of the national curriculum for all ages

CLICK THE LINK ABOVE AND SIGN THE PETITION

Three weeks later….

Not the usual post today, just a reflection and a few redirections. 

When I began writing earlier this month, it was in response to my writer’s block finally shifting after 10 years. I found that words flowed effortlessly and while that happened I decided that I wanted to use my gift of writing to make a difference. I embarked on a petition to help do my bit in the hope of making a difference for society today and future generations. Misunderstandings, led me to write a my PSA, where I reintroduced myself to those who couldn’t grasp what I was hoping to achieve.

I got the requisite signatures needed for my petition to go to standards to be checked but to my dismay it was rejected. I am a firm believer that a closed door is not a locked one, so I sat down and wrote my OPEN LETTER TO THE HOUSE OF COMMONS PETITION COMMITTEE detailing why I thought their rejection was in error. They heard me and they understood me and the petition went live. But I still need all of you to help make a difference. I may have started this alone but I cannot complete it alone. There is power in unity and together we can and will make a change. 

Along the way I have taken the time to share a little more about myself. Ive shown you why one of my nicknames is Casper, and how apt it is. I have taken you along on my journey to a vegan diet and shown you that while I didn’t start out a vegan in the traditional sense, I wont stand for animal cruelty. I have let you see that I haven’t always had the healthiest relationship with food. I have revealed my favourite boss and what lessons I learnt from working at Discovery Inc. I’ve confessed to being a proud Spin Addict, mourned the anniversary of Grenfell, celebrated the second Windrush day, noted the difference power and courage can have. 

You have seen examples of the racism I have experienced in my life, being Black and British. My opinion and reflection on the UK and its systemic racism . The realities of growing up with a black parents love, a black mothers love, and the love that I have for all Black people. I have touched on the hypocrisy of the British public when it comes to the Black Lives Matter UK movement and protests, taken the time to remind everyone that BLACK is not a contact sport, that angry black woman is not a stereotype to be used with me, noted that Covid-19 meant we cant breathe and that we can see through the people treating the suffering and pain of Black people globally as a fad or a phase. 

I have reflected on my activist heart and stated that I care a lot while asking why dont you too?  And I have asked that you look inwards and ask yourselves what did you do?  Before you trivialise the efforts of others.

Aside from all of that, I also wrote a post published by @sistem_magazine (go check them out and give them a follow) where I noted the similarities between Issa Rae and I and asked Am I insecure? 

Credit/Source: Sistem Magazine

I have released a couple books onto amazon for pre-order. The first is “To Be Black and British” which expands on an article  I wrote after I received many requests to tell the stories behind all the experiences I noted. The second is a fictional novel based on my first few years in a student in London, entitled “Bread and Crust” it was first written over 10 years ago when I graduated from university. Samples of the books first 6 chapters are also available. 

I hope that you have enjoyed the journey thus far and that you will follow my website and continue to join me as I strive to make a positive difference in this world. 

http://www.Kris-Tna.com